i hate it when i try and be there for people however i feel like no one actually care's about me. im so freaking annoyed right now but im trying to hold it in. i hope i've done okay in my english oral, im aiming for at least a B. double sociology tomorrow seriously not looking forward to it, right now im putting all the pictures of the day we went to the field of horses on  a usb stick for louise, and attempting to do some revision for drama, tomorrow lunch time im spending the whole lunch time in the drama room preparing for my exam. my house is so cold its unreal. today in the photoshoot there was this really fit guy called owen from llanishen but i cant find him on facebook, gutted. but im going to try harder and harder to find him. im so tired that i might as well have a little sleep, really not looking forward to school tomorrow. im planning to go into town on saturday all by myself, have coffee, do some revision, coursework and blogging, mayn i havent had a starbucks in such a long time. i went into simply shakes for what they called my interview and it turns out that they didnt want a part time, after i rush there after the photoshoot to try and make it on time and that's what they say, so piss taking. im really annoyed that i cant find this guy on facebook -_- . for some reason i have a bag of graps and a bottle of orange juice that has not been opened from today, i usually eat a lot at lunch time but today i was really tired and distracted by the cute guy that i didnt want to eat. There was 5 of us all together, me, jordan chambers this boy from willows i used to know, ashley something this guy from fitzalan  in year 13, some girl called abigail year 10 llanrumney and owen from llanishen in year 11. owen was the little cutie, he was tanned and brown swishy hair, wooooh. it was so much thought, i made friends with all of them which was great and the photographers were all really nice. I actually enjoy meeting new people, i mean its difficult , awkward and nerve wrecking at the start but then you kind of get used to it, and the people turn out to be really nice. i have to go now, im super tired and my favourite mexican tv show is on. later

i hate valentines day, its just a day to make singles feel bad about their relationship life. everywhere i turn there is advertisement about valentines day, its like a Christmas for people in relationships and i feel left out because i'm not in a relationship.I feel like the women with 2893529 cats, lonely and no friends, although i kind of feel sorry for this women, i mean why is it that she is so stereotyped to be lonely because she has a ton of cats, maybe their cute cats.I'm talking to charlie right now and i have convinced her to make a blogger and i feel special that she is going to write her first blog about me. I have so much sympathy for her, because the little cat (this girl) keeps flirting with charlies ex ( feisal) as i have mentioned before in my blog, and she was telling me about how angry she was at him because she was flirting with jess before they even broke up, it literally broke my heart to hear that. although im not in a relationship myself but i can't help feel so bad and guilty for some reason, i wish i had said something to jess to put her back in her place, this bitch thinks she can get away with murder. i love how me and charlie have gotten much closer this year, and i love how she can trust me to talk about her relationships, i feel like a good friend, one day im just going to punch jess and feisal in the face har har. i went to costco today, maynn it was good especially the food one of the main reasons i go there. right now im talking to rob about music and joe strummer, hes got quiet good taste in music little josh as well. tomorrow is the photo shoot thingy for the eco commity and im not really looking forward to it now, im going to be lonely with people from all different schools. me no like :'(

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the weather this morning was so gloomy and depressing but it seemed to have brightened up by lunch time. i had triple drama in the morning which went by really quickly, quite odd if im honest because they usually tend to drag on and on. it kind of irratated me that triston hadn't learnt any of his lines and forgot his script once again. although the last drama lesson all i did was talk to charlie and rob and generally laugh so i cant really complain about that. i felt really sorry for louise and agnes today because joshua morgan and cherelle carter damaged their sculpture and they spent such a long time and put soo much effort into it, and for the chav's like cherelle and josh to break it like that i would have flipped out. i dont think agnes is aware of her sculpture but im so sure she is going to be pretty upset, i mean i would be anyway. and then we had double history, it was like hell. i'm watching tracey beaker it seems like such a long time ago. it really irratating me that everywhere i look i can hear/see something about valentines day. i mean i would probably enjoy myself if i had someone or in a relationship but being single suuuuuuuuuuuuuuucks. i felt so sorry for charlie today when she was talking about how jessica flirts with feisal all the time. its sooo true they do it all the time in I.T and on facebook, she does it all the time with all the boys in our side of the year the ones who are single and the ones who are in a relationship. nasty little cat, i dont understand what part of being in a relationship she doesnt understand, as josey said she must have a fetish or something LOL. its kind of true. i should really get on with some media coursework i have so much to do in such a small amount of time best get cracking ladz. we did a music introduction video for HELP! the new boyband it was so funny, i know have to shoot me and louise and edit it all together. im so excited.

 GLEE is on in a bit. im so god damn excited right now, although i have no idea why. sometimes i just have those moments were i feel totally surreal and crazy, I LOVE IT. i was just talking to rowan about how he shouldn't make fun of any religion and  I told him he was wrong, I did myself proud. I filled in my apple application form for a job, im so excited i really do hope i get in. i love apple, i've bought most of their ipod's and I  use safari and im planning to buy a macbook, everyone loves apple even though they're so expensive they are so beutiful. har har i now have 8 followers, im going to check my stats maybe more people have read my blog. i have triple drama tomorrow morning and then double history. gutttted.

i have to go now, get ready for bed + glee
night xxxxxxxx

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Today in ICT me, louise and ella were checking our blog's and i found out all the different places in which people were actually reading my blog. literally reading it. it was so exciting to actually think people instead of myself read this hehehehehe. THANK YOU. I actually mean it, all you beautiful 7 followers. and one of you is private im really curious to know who it is. love you peeeeeeeeepz 

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I'm in love with willow smith's new song. maaayn she got a foine daddy