LOVELY.

DOUBLE I.C.T TOMORROW! I'm actually looking forward to it because I want to get the coursework over and done with. I'm so excited tomorrow is the first meeting for the year book, I'm so glad that we're doing it this year because it seem's so much fun to be involved in stuff like these, I'm thinking of joining the school newspaper as well, it sounds so much fun. shit, I only just realised that I left my Media folder somewhere in school again. great i always seem to lose it, and this time it has my Maths folder it in as well, if I don't find it tomorrow I'm so screwed. I'm going to write some more later, right now I have to go shower.

suicide?

I was just scanning through my facebook untill something caught my eye, it as status from one of the  boys that used to come to my high school, he wrote that he wanted to commit suicide because he feels everyone hates him and picks on him. I'm so devestated, how could people be so cruel to do make him feel like this, what has he done that people have to treat him so badly in order that he feels they only way out is to commit suicide. It's not right and I'm going to do something about it, I have decided that I want to start a group in my school like amensty international but to help people with suicide problems. I'm so upset

I just finished talking to a couple of my friends on msn, we were pranking people, superise I actually have some friends being the crazy self I am. I love how we all know each other and we can be honest with each other without hurting ourselves or the other person, I think that's what true friendship is, where you know you can express your feelings towards each other knowing that the other person understands your point of view and respects it. Thinking to myself I actually realised that I become attached to people so easily I actually don't know why. I was speaking to one of my friends last night and he pointed out to me that this is actually true, I somewhat become attached to random strangers  that I don't know simply because I might feel sorry for them. For example I was telling him about this crazy chav women with the two kids and how she is so crazy, and I couldn't help feel sorry for her kids, they looked so unhappy and I began to imagine if they had pets that they didn't feed. I couldn't bear the thought of something like that. I honestly don't understand why I'm like this or if caring so much is  a good or bad thing, I find it so heart breaking to see someone upset, I actually feel like someone is riping my heart out, I'm always complaining about my stupid relationship's or love life's maybe it's the fact that I care about other's so much that I forget about myself and my own personal issues. But I can't help it, I truly can't, when I see abuse on small children for I have to do something or say something to express my feelings that it's a wrong thing. I don't think that this a bad thing, I care for people, for people that have been nice to me, hate me, or people that have treated me like shit, I would never ever want to see them hurt and I don't understand why someone would feel joy of seeing someone upset, its horrible and cruel and I cannot stand it. It really bugs me when girls say that they wouldn't care if their ex's got hit by a bus a died. WHAT?! how can you be so serious, I myself don't care if my ex boyfriends are with the wrong person or have been in trouble but to hear that something fatal has happened to them I would be devestated.Why am I talking so much, I should really cut down but I can't it for some reason comes naturally.

traaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

                                                      SO TIRED 

Staring out at the beautiful blue ocean, her eyes of the same colour sparkled in the summer sun. In one swift, graceful movement she lowered her thin body on to the soft sand and exhaled deeply. Drawing her knees to her chest, she began to scoop up large handfuls of sand, letting them slowly filter through her ring-clad fingers. At least thirty seagulls littered the beach to her left, and to her right the rocky coast extended as far as the eye could see. She loved nature, especially the sea.


I'm thinking of writing a story since i have nothing to do. 

today was windy

I don't care if people think I am being over dramatic but today the weather has just been dreadful, heavy wind and trickles of rain. worst.weather.ever. I am not even going to begin a description of my hair, dreadful. Today has just been a gloomy day. Josey<3 ahh I felt so heart broken for her, she was really upset because she hasn't spoken to liam for days ( liam being her boyfriend). I understand why she is upset I feel that any girl would be, I just want her to be the happy, lovey- dovey couple they were before, I don't like seeing them without each other it doesn't feel right, I actually want them to get married, it would be so cool. I could see that liam wasn't being himself either, in tutorial he's usually crazy but lately he has become quiet. please please lord cupid make things better again. I'm trying to think of what to do to over come my boredom but I can't, I'm so tired and hungry, but I can't be bothered to go all the way downstairs and get something to eat. my blackberry is so annoying, its either not working or its broken, worst piece of shit ever. i mean its beautiful and i love but its shit at the same time. so many people have it now, its become like a new trend for everyone. haha i feel so proud that i have 32 contacts although some people have like 300, but who cares i love being lonely and no friends and no one wants to have me on their blackberry messenger. its fun. I'm really not looking forward to valentines day and the whole coming week, i just hate February all together. 

i need to take a bath, so speak later