who am I living for?

i'm so sick and tired of believing and trying to follow a religion, at all. I try so hard to please everyone and everything, why? what do I get? all I get is rumours, bitchiness and to be honest things that make me so unhappy. surly I couldn't have done something so bad like this that I get treated this BADLY. I'm not saying that religion is a bad thing, because its not. I myself and my family are christians, but so far it has done me no good. to be honest I don't even though why I'm talking about this. shut up pardis. no one cares