Saturday, 30 April 2011
goodbye everybody :)! I'm sure most of us are still recovering from the royal wedding even though we weren't invited I feel like the whole of Great Britain is tired. I still can't get over how stunning Kate looked! her dress, her makeup! so natural and elegant and STUNNING! goodnight dear readers - i hope I haven't bored you to death xxxxx
writing challenge part 1 - *write a short autobiography*
Well I've lived in Cardiff my whole entire life, it's kind of boring because nothing really happens here its not a major city like london or new york. However I love it here, its so calm and peaceful and its a place that I truly call my home. I'm 16 :( i feel so old, this sounds stupid because I'm on 16. but still, today im 16 tomorrow im 60! I really like the countryside, I hope to live in the vale when I'm around 50, yes I'm planning ahead. I've grown up living with both my parents and my two siblings, at times its hard to share three bathrooms, one shower and one bath with each other but we schedule and somehow it manages to work out. My parents have brought be up believing morales and dreaming big, they want me to become something one day. I want to be that person that people look up to, someone's inspiration, I want to have changed someone's life. I don't want to be the average girl that I am right now, I want to break out of my shell. Right now I'm at high school, but last year, I hope to go to collage in Cardiff and the University in England. I want to be independant and not lean on my parents for money or their support financially, I want to repay them back some day for all the expensive they have paid me over these past couple of years. I love listening to Ska and Rock music. ahh I can go on forever about how much I love some bands, but people get automatically bored and don't listen to me.
I want to get married to a doctor one day around the age of 29. I couldn't imagine getting married any younger, I'm not really thinking of children, maybe 1 or 2, 3 would be pushing it. I like to plan ahead so that my life has a structure. I LOVE ACTING! - ahh watching films and seeing these amazing actors and actresses inspires me in so many ways, I can't even begin to tell you how many of them I adore. My main idiol would have to be Katy Perry! I love that girl, she's such an individual, she has such a different taste and intake in life, I am one of her biggest fans ever! One day I will want to be something like her, have fans.
that's all I can think of right now
who am I living for?
i'm so sick and tired of believing and trying to follow a religion, at all. I try so hard to please everyone and everything, why? what do I get? all I get is rumours, bitchiness and to be honest things that make me so unhappy. surly I couldn't have done something so bad like this that I get treated this BADLY. I'm not saying that religion is a bad thing, because its not. I myself and my family are christians, but so far it has done me no good. to be honest I don't even though why I'm talking about this. shut up pardis. no one cares
Friday, 29 April 2011
wedding day fever
I have to admit that I wasn't really looking to the royal wedding because I couldn't really be bothered about it, I thought people were taking it way to seriously and to be honest I didn't understand what the big deal was until today! I was drawn into watching the royal wedding with my mother and sister and all I can say is WOW. it was truly a moment that brought the whole of Great Britain together, proud to be British. Kate looked beautiful, so elegant and simple, her dress, ahh I can go on forever and ever! William looked like a little cutie as usual, and harry also. I wish I could marry harry, I met him once so I'm sure I'm somewhere at the back of his head.
over all it was such an amazing wedding, truly one the most brilliant times ever, and I am pretty sure most of you guys think so too.
CONGRATULATIONS WILLIAM + KATE!
I'm so sorry
Argh! I feel like I have dedicated my life to anything but blogging, I miss it. usually I'm really dedicated to using my blog, putting up pictures and posting almost three times a day but recently I've been so wrapped up in everything I didn't really have any time. So this is me saying that I am sorry and I will be using my blogger a lot more.
I have also started using Twitter -
@yoparadise
I shall post something very very soon. something exciting
Thursday, 28 April 2011
A brilliant day
Today I spent the whole day with my friends. nwah I have missed them so much, it was amazing to see them all, we went cinema and then food and then we went to the park. i'm really tired and I am deep into my revision so I don't really want to ramble on about it. I will post some of the pictures up tomorrow
good night everyone xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Wednesday, 27 April 2011
10 things that are on my mind right now
1) What am I going to wear tomorrow?
2) I'm excited to see if any of my friends have any physical changes
3) I'm falling for you and im super super scared.
4) I'm so bored, I wish someone could talk to me
5) I think you are such an interesting person, your shy yet confident. so stupid yet so smart.
6)I should really clean my room.
7)I want a bath but I cba.
8)I'm so hungry
9)I want a realllly long phone conversation
10) should i deactivate facebook?
2) I'm excited to see if any of my friends have any physical changes
3) I'm falling for you and im super super scared.
4) I'm so bored, I wish someone could talk to me
5) I think you are such an interesting person, your shy yet confident. so stupid yet so smart.
6)I should really clean my room.
7)I want a bath but I cba.
8)I'm so hungry
9)I want a realllly long phone conversation
10) should i deactivate facebook?
08.56 am
This is the earliest I have woken up since the holidays have began, frankly I am knackered but I am determined to get to the library on time, well first of all mcdonalds breakfast and then the library to crack on with some revision. From today my main focus is going to be revision, I've decided that I want to buy a calendar and notepad and pen (a cute one) these are going to be the tools that I should operate for revision. did that sound cool or was it just in my head?
I'm off to get ready because I have to be at the library by 10 - and I live in pontprennau its far away from everything, argh not to mention that I have to get on the dreaded bus. Its so annoying because people are examining my every move. aaahh I can't write anymore time is ticking and I must get ready
speak to you all later <3
I'm off to get ready because I have to be at the library by 10 - and I live in pontprennau its far away from everything, argh not to mention that I have to get on the dreaded bus. Its so annoying because people are examining my every move. aaahh I can't write anymore time is ticking and I must get ready
speak to you all later <3
Tuesday, 26 April 2011
Sara ♥'s pretty little things + FIRST BLOG AWARD!
right now I AM OVER THE MOOON! this is the best thing that has happened to me since I have started blogging >.<
the awesome girl that I have been talking about Sara has picked me for a award or something along with two other bloggers. I feel so grateful and well kind of shocked if I'm honest with you. This girl is one of my favourite bloggers ever! and the fact that she even looks at my blog but then picks me for award does not seem real! i entered for her give away but then I was drawn to her blog like a moth to a flame. I LOVE IT! <3
hii sara if your reading this I just want to say thank you sooo much! this means so much to me and the fact that you picked me is craaazy, so thank you ever so much i hope that maybe one day I can repay the favour some how xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
the awesome girl that I have been talking about Sara has picked me for a award or something along with two other bloggers. I feel so grateful and well kind of shocked if I'm honest with you. This girl is one of my favourite bloggers ever! and the fact that she even looks at my blog but then picks me for award does not seem real! i entered for her give away but then I was drawn to her blog like a moth to a flame. I LOVE IT! <3
hii sara if your reading this I just want to say thank you sooo much! this means so much to me and the fact that you picked me is craaazy, so thank you ever so much i hope that maybe one day I can repay the favour some how xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
why I started blogging
At first blogging really wasn't my cup of tea, to me it just felt like it was a place where people bitch about others like any other social networking website. However I thought that I would make one to see what all the fuss was about, if I'm honest with you guys when I did first start to blog I felt really uncomfortable and awkward as to what I could and couldn't say. but then I started to write for myself, I started to write about things that mattered to me, it became a place for my thoughts and feelings and a place where I can be totally myself all the time. I don't really like to gossip on my blog, just because I don't want it to be the centre of everyones attention.
So yes from the on I have been hocked onto blogger like a fish to a fishing rod. ok that was a very bad example but ya get ma drift. the one thing that has kept me going is that people are actually coming on my blog to read it, it means so so so much that people take their time to read and sometimes comment or email me. its so sweet and caring :)!
so if your reading this - I just want to tell you how grateful and happy I am because even if my stats increase by 1 it still means so much to me. SO THANK YOU VERY VERY VERY much - if you do have a blog be sure to post in the comment section below - I will be more than happy to take a look.
loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeee from me :D
So yes from the on I have been hocked onto blogger like a fish to a fishing rod. ok that was a very bad example but ya get ma drift. the one thing that has kept me going is that people are actually coming on my blog to read it, it means so so so much that people take their time to read and sometimes comment or email me. its so sweet and caring :)!
so if your reading this - I just want to tell you how grateful and happy I am because even if my stats increase by 1 it still means so much to me. SO THANK YOU VERY VERY VERY much - if you do have a blog be sure to post in the comment section below - I will be more than happy to take a look.
loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeee from me :D
ola
I'm still in bed when it is 11.46 exactly. i feel knackered even though I haven't really done anything to consume all of my energy. I was so excited that ella was coming back to Cardiff from dubai but her sister told us that she couldn't get a ticket back :( :( :(!
I miss going on holidays. but this year I'm going Italy and Thailand woop woop. I just need to get away from Cardiff and seeing the same people over and over again, I want to go somewhere where I can experience different cultures, different people, different food, different taste DIFFERENT EVERYTHING! Just once I don't want to be in my comfort zone all the time, I want to meet people that are inspirational. this is going to sound so weird but seeing people be different and outrageous inspires me. ok that was cheesier than I would want it to be. I go to Italy every single year because my uncle and his italian wife own a vineyard there, I love it there so much. the weather, the guys, the shops everything about it is so wonderful. not to mention that I get to live on a vineyard which is masssssive and there is free wine :}
I also go to Taiiwan every now and then because my other uncle owns a rice company, to be honest I don't like it there the food is horrible but the clothes and technology is so cheap, probably my favourite part of the holiday. I'm going to go watch gossip girl now because im behind
wishing you all a very happy tuesday
Monday, 25 April 2011
louise lawerence
hii louise, sorry if I spelt your surname wrong I was just so excited to write this post. I was just reading her formspring and I noticed that some of the questions she has got are just horrible. She doesn't deserve any of this, she keeps being told that what she writes on her blog is wrong, people its her blog, It what she thinks, what she wants, how she feels. There was this one comment that I saw that said they are going to expose her. the most pathetic thing I have ever heard in my whole entire life. The person that has been writing all of these questions just wants to upset her and make her feel scared. she can write whatever she wants because its her blog and she shouldn't have to make it private because some idiot is threatening her. This just makes me so bloody angry, leave the girl alone, she hasn't done anything to deserve this. stop punishing her for what she has written on her blog, its her blog, its her mind, its her thoughts JUST STOP! I was reading through her blog and I noticed that this was upsetting her, the fact that people take her blog and turn it into something that she never intended for it to be.
I just want to say louise if you are reading this, I have SO SO much respect for you, you are one the most strongest most brilliant person that I have ever met in my whole entire 16 years of living. you are so strong mentally and physically, you don't deserve any of the things that has been written on your formspring because none of them are true. I know i haven't known you that long but I have so much trust and love for you. tehehehe this is turning out to be such a cheesy post but I don't want anyone to make you feel upset or sad because you don't need it. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
I just want to say louise if you are reading this, I have SO SO much respect for you, you are one the most strongest most brilliant person that I have ever met in my whole entire 16 years of living. you are so strong mentally and physically, you don't deserve any of the things that has been written on your formspring because none of them are true. I know i haven't known you that long but I have so much trust and love for you. tehehehe this is turning out to be such a cheesy post but I don't want anyone to make you feel upset or sad because you don't need it. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
Sunday, 24 April 2011
horoscope is right?
I'm not really a superstitious person or whatever but I do read my horoscope. I don't believe in them but I just find it amusing to read something that people think is actually going to happen to them. As I was reading mine today I noticed that some bits of it were actually true. it went something like this ' you're feeling established from a relationship in the past, you keep drawing back to them because your scared to tell the person you like how you feel.'
that is exactly what is happening to me. I was in shock for a very long time after reading that, its the way I feel and what is actually happening to me. I may not have mentioned this before but one of my ex's Joe, has been starting to speak to me again recently. First of all I was trying to be blunt and to give him the impression that my feelings from him are long gone, I was in a relationship with him around 2 years ago and frankly if I'm honest I am over him, I don't even think about him anymore. But sometimes he randomly on facebook tells me I'm beautiful and How I'm the prettiest girl he has ever been with. When he says that I can't be angry or blunt with him because I feel rude and horrible and he is genially a really nice guy but so I have to say thank you, but in no way does it mean that I have feelings for the boy. I don't know whether that is how he actually feels or its just him being the cheeky/flirty person I know he is. I do care about it and a little bit of me will always love him but I can't let that be the main concern of my life right now. I'm over this whole thing. I was a long time ago, I don't want to it haunt me like it did before, I don't like the person that I became at that time. Talking about this is really hard for me because I don't really have anyone I can talk to properly no one cares, so this is going to be a very long post as you can tell. I think I will always care and love him but in a different way, I just don't want it to affect the person that I actually want to be with at this moment in time.
I do really really like this guy but I feel like I'm not good enough for him. It's typical for a person like me to say this because I feel like he can do so so much better. At first I didn't really have this kind of feeling towards him but as time went on and I got to know him a little bit better, I was starting to grow really found of him. He told me he liked me but being the idiot that I am, I felt like I was really rude to him and I should have cared more about his feelings. Now that I have this sort of feelings towards him of course its understandable that the guy doesn't even want anything to do with me. I'm not going to say his name because thats just an invasion of privacy and I don't want the whole world to know that its him, I do hope he doesn't read this because I'm just going to come across looking like a creepy weird child.
I don't know what to say or do or feel.
stuck in the middle :(
EASTER SUNDAY :)!
good afternoon peepz, happy easter to every single one of you, once again the weather is brilliant but I'm staying in the whole day. I don't really know what I want to do, I didn't eat that much chocolate either since it kind of makes me feel sick. the one thing im looking forward to today is the fact that ella is coming home :)! im excited to hear about all the things she did in dubai because they're so amusing. a lot of my friends are going to this bbq thing so I can't really ask them to come out because they're already going somewhere. so today i'm just going to stay home and watch the Sarah Jane Adventures.
happy easter once again :)!
happy easter once again :)!
Saturday, 23 April 2011
FIRST EVER VIDEO
Ok so a few weeks ago I promised that I would make videos of me answering your questions, being the idiot that I am I forgot to check my email for a long time, and last night when I checked I found out that I had 3 questions awaiting me. This is anonymous I promise not to read your email address out if you dont want me to. sorry for the bad quality I am using my laptop and I am sitting in my parent's bathroom cause its warm. I did this last night so therefor I have no makeup on and im in Pj's - do forgive me :D!
send me questions : notthenormalkind@gmail.com
i have nothing to do in this sunny weather but drink boost and vodka
Ok So a couple of days ago i posted a bunch of random pictures of me doing nothing. supervisory you guys enjoyed it so here is a bunch of me on my bed, drinking and making funny faces.
who cares because it tastes goooood
fuck da H@t£R$
my attempt at being an 'Angry Bird'
Drinking boost and Vodka
drinking alone :(who cares because it tastes goooood
fuck da H@t£R$
my attempt at being an 'Angry Bird'
Friday, 22 April 2011
failed yet again
in my last post I promised to myself that I would keep away from facebook and blogger right up untill the end of the week. But i really can't help myself I've been so bored that for the last half an hour I've been looking at random Cat pictures on google images, i have such an exciting social life. emm not. I guess that not going on facebook or blogger isnt going to help me get better GCSE grades but revising well. So im not going to limit my options and stay at home all the time reading and revising, im going to out go with my friends and im going use the internet but I am also going to revise.
I woke up this morning with a famous hangover from going to Barry last night, even though i promised myself that I wasn't going to get drunk or even tipsy, I ended up peeing with arnissa, walking by the motorway with no shoes, singing and dancing along with habbiba. the only people that got drunk were me, habbiba, matthew,arnissa, and lloyd and we where the only ones having a lot of fun, the others just seemed upset or just not in the mood. I just hope they had a little bit of fun. Here is the picture of us yes we do not look good at all :
I feel that me and arnissa have gotten so much closer, although I feel like I have drifted away from ella and louise and I really don't want that because it feels like im losing them.I know this sounds stupid because they're like my best friends but I can't help but miss them so much. I didn't even have the chance to say goodbye to ella before she left for dubai - I feel like ive been such a bad friend. I hate feeling like this
I woke up this morning with a famous hangover from going to Barry last night, even though i promised myself that I wasn't going to get drunk or even tipsy, I ended up peeing with arnissa, walking by the motorway with no shoes, singing and dancing along with habbiba. the only people that got drunk were me, habbiba, matthew,arnissa, and lloyd and we where the only ones having a lot of fun, the others just seemed upset or just not in the mood. I just hope they had a little bit of fun. Here is the picture of us yes we do not look good at all :
lifes good when your drunk
but overall it was really good fun and im glad that I got to know people better. espcially matthew because before we spoke but we weren't like crazy but he was a lot of fun. And his girlfriend seems lovely, hopefully I will get to meet her one day. I hope.
taking a break
I've decided to take a break from blogger and facebook. Just because i really want to do some revision and I feel that I can't do any if i'm constantly posting. So it's good bye blogger untill the end of half term.
xxxxxx
Thursday, 21 April 2011
thank you guys :'D
I just want to say how grateful I am that you guys are reading my blog :)! i received the nicest email from one of you and im going to mention you in my next post. THANK YOU <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
Wednesday, 20 April 2011
If I were a key, where would I hide?
this is the 3rd house key that I have lost this month! I am hopeless, they somehow disappear and its so annoying because I know I haven't lost them but I just can't find them -_-
I have seriously looked everywhere in the house but I can't seem to find them, its bugging me because I know when I make a new pair, I will find the other ones. i'm really tired and seriously cannot be bothered to look any more
I have seriously looked everywhere in the house but I can't seem to find them, its bugging me because I know when I make a new pair, I will find the other ones. i'm really tired and seriously cannot be bothered to look any more
Tuesday, 19 April 2011
me being stupid : as usual
I bought a new bath bomb today ' Sex bomb'
it smells good
let see how it looks like
its a little cupcake
with a flower in the middle
before i started chocking on it
I wonder if it tastes good?
yup it tastes GREAT -_-
Im so lame I laugh at my own pictures and captions
hello little creepy child
it smells good
let see how it looks like
its a little cupcake
with a flower in the middle
before i started chocking on it
I wonder if it tastes good?
yup it tastes GREAT -_-
Im so lame I laugh at my own pictures and captions
hello little creepy child
how i feel
1)I'm hungry
2)I'm tired
3)I'm broke
4)I'm single
5)I'm bored
6)I'm cold
7)I'm confused
8)I'm on blogger, again,
2)I'm tired
3)I'm broke
4)I'm single
5)I'm bored
6)I'm cold
7)I'm confused
8)I'm on blogger, again,
I feel happy la la la la laaaaaaaaaaa
I love feeling like this, you know like in one of the movies you see especially in musicals when the person is happy their either singing or dancing well thats how i feel right now. I'm so so so happy and I don't even know, maybe just randomly high on life, i've never been high so i don't really know what it feels like.
i spent the whole day with my mum and sister again and did a little bit of shopping. hopefully tomorrow i can spend the whole day revising because I haven't done much of it. my dad is forcefully making me eat some dinner but even the smell of it makes me sick, usually I love meat loaf but I just don't feel like eating at all.
im a little relieved now because I've found out that hopefully everything is ok
so happy pardis is still on the go :D!
i spent the whole day with my mum and sister again and did a little bit of shopping. hopefully tomorrow i can spend the whole day revising because I haven't done much of it. my dad is forcefully making me eat some dinner but even the smell of it makes me sick, usually I love meat loaf but I just don't feel like eating at all.
im a little relieved now because I've found out that hopefully everything is ok
so happy pardis is still on the go :D!
so disappointed in my self
Last night I promised my self that I would try and wake up at 7. i didnt.
I slept through my alarm and I would have probably not have even woke up right now If I hadn't got a phone call.
So now have I only let myself down but woke up with a head ache.
grrrr
I slept through my alarm and I would have probably not have even woke up right now If I hadn't got a phone call.
So now have I only let myself down but woke up with a head ache.
grrrr
Monday, 18 April 2011
being someone's second best
One of my friends on facebook just posted one of the best things I have ever heard, she basically put a status about how it feels to be second best and we don't deserve it. usually me and this girl don't have much in common but with this. WE DO. I hate being someone's second choice, especially when it comes to boys, its horrible. And the worst thing is no body is there to talk to you about and it, to be honest I don't think many people care. we don't need to be someone's second choice, we are much much better than that, this is going to sound so vein and big headed of me but we are a much better person than them. screw the bitch :)!
- im off to bed before I faint, so tired.
speak to tomorrow morning, I plan to wake up at 7 so lets see how it goes, I will make a early bird post just for proof.
- im off to bed before I faint, so tired.
speak to tomorrow morning, I plan to wake up at 7 so lets see how it goes, I will make a early bird post just for proof.
goodnight guys xx
Being positive about Life
I've heard from a lot of people that I am a really happy person. Most of the time people say it as a compliment but others might say it as ' Your so happy all the time, its really annoying.' Well yes it is, but being positive and smiling about certain things just makes it easier to deal with. I'm the sort of person that likes to laugh as much as I possibly can, yes I have had my times were I feel really down but I try really hard not to show it.
Being positive helps me to live my life, it makes things much easier for me, my friends, and my family. So many people go their whole day without even smiling, how can you possibly do that? Not smiling is showing that you are not happy how can you possibly survive without being happy. Most of the time we are not happy because we can only see the negative in certain issues, for example when your buying a new shampoo the company advertise the attracting things about it, for example '2/3 women agree that it leaves their hair feeling smooth' they're not going to say that ' 1/3 women find this product rubbish.' being positive about their product is what attracts the customers and they are tempted to buy it.
So if we're more positive towards our life, to our friends, to our family and to everyday situations, for sure we will be a much happier person on the inside and out.
Being positive helps me to live my life, it makes things much easier for me, my friends, and my family. So many people go their whole day without even smiling, how can you possibly do that? Not smiling is showing that you are not happy how can you possibly survive without being happy. Most of the time we are not happy because we can only see the negative in certain issues, for example when your buying a new shampoo the company advertise the attracting things about it, for example '2/3 women agree that it leaves their hair feeling smooth' they're not going to say that ' 1/3 women find this product rubbish.' being positive about their product is what attracts the customers and they are tempted to buy it.
So if we're more positive towards our life, to our friends, to our family and to everyday situations, for sure we will be a much happier person on the inside and out.
another 10 random stupid facts about me
1) I can't hold a grudge
2) I get intimidated very easily
3) I think im in love with Katy Perry
4) I hate my legs. chubby
5) I laugh at situations that make me angry
6) I feel like that I should apologize to so many people
7) I miss school A LOT!
8) I get easily wound up and upset about life's drama's.
9) I've listened to the Specials All day
10) I moan waaay to much
2) I get intimidated very easily
3) I think im in love with Katy Perry
4) I hate my legs. chubby
5) I laugh at situations that make me angry
6) I feel like that I should apologize to so many people
7) I miss school A LOT!
8) I get easily wound up and upset about life's drama's.
9) I've listened to the Specials All day
10) I moan waaay to much
this is so annoying, I keep seeing random bruises pop up out of no where, I don't understand where they're coming from. I just got home from some serious shopping with my mum and sister, I feel really bad because I spent a lot today. mainly shopping for america and the summer but I still have some more tomorrow, I try and cut back but its so god damn hard.
I saw Arnissa in town today which was so exciting, and it made me more excited about our trip on thursday. We've planned to go to barry island, hopefully it will be sunny. nothing to talk about today, just super tired. I feel like that I haven't tried to make my blog interesting because im so lazy but i promise by the midnight I would have written something that people would actually be interested in reading, not this bull shit that I wrote about my day.
xx
I saw Arnissa in town today which was so exciting, and it made me more excited about our trip on thursday. We've planned to go to barry island, hopefully it will be sunny. nothing to talk about today, just super tired. I feel like that I haven't tried to make my blog interesting because im so lazy but i promise by the midnight I would have written something that people would actually be interested in reading, not this bull shit that I wrote about my day.
xx
Sunday, 17 April 2011
once again I went out with my family, and again it was a lot of fun :')! below are a couple of pictures I took, not of my self but the beauty that surrounded me.
actually im going to post another 'post' with the pictures. I went walking around the beautiful river there and it got me thinking about a lot of things. It's nice to have me time for a change, don't care about anything or anyone else but myself.
that sounds selfish so im sorry but i really need it.
I really want to talk to someone about everything. EVERYTHING! I tried phoning sayda but I think she was sleeping so i don't want to bother her, i love that girl, i cant phone her and we talk ages about everything. and she gets so excited about it, even though half of the things we talk about dont even involve her.
I really want to write something personal and meaningful but I don't want the person to think im horrible and stone hearted.
hmm what to do?
actually im going to post another 'post' with the pictures. I went walking around the beautiful river there and it got me thinking about a lot of things. It's nice to have me time for a change, don't care about anything or anyone else but myself.
that sounds selfish so im sorry but i really need it.
I really want to talk to someone about everything. EVERYTHING! I tried phoning sayda but I think she was sleeping so i don't want to bother her, i love that girl, i cant phone her and we talk ages about everything. and she gets so excited about it, even though half of the things we talk about dont even involve her.
I really want to write something personal and meaningful but I don't want the person to think im horrible and stone hearted.
hmm what to do?
Saturday, 16 April 2011
why should we have to change ourselves to please other people? People that might not even care about us but only use us. people that we think we are helping but they are only taking advantages of us. No sir, we should don't change ourselves - we are all perfect just the way we are.
I'm proud of myself and who I've become - I don't regret any of the things I have done because they have all been experiences for me, some good and some bad. But that's just life, we have our ups and downs. There is no such thing as being happy or sad all the time, we have to engage with all different sorts of emotions, thoughts and feelings. What's the use of sticking to one thing when we can have a wide range of certain things.
- in bed with a cup of tea and all of these things suddenly popped into my head, see its true. I have most of these meaningful moments when I'm about to fall asleep but I have to post them because in the morning I would have forgotten.
I'm proud of myself and who I've become - I don't regret any of the things I have done because they have all been experiences for me, some good and some bad. But that's just life, we have our ups and downs. There is no such thing as being happy or sad all the time, we have to engage with all different sorts of emotions, thoughts and feelings. What's the use of sticking to one thing when we can have a wide range of certain things.
- in bed with a cup of tea and all of these things suddenly popped into my head, see its true. I have most of these meaningful moments when I'm about to fall asleep but I have to post them because in the morning I would have forgotten.
new hair cut
So I'm getting my hair cut this week and I was wondering what to get. I really want a fringe but I don't know if it will suite me or not
Be honest - please dont say that it looks nice when you think it doesnt suite me tell me your honest opinion
your comment would be appreciated
its sunny outside
the weather looks amazing outside but I can't go out, I promised my self that I want to stay home clean my room and start some revision..again -_-
So here it goes ;
i will upload a picture later of how my bedroom is so messy, its disgusting. seriously
happy saturday peepz
20 random useless facts about me
1) I love my family - they mean the whole world to me.
2) Again the same with my friends - I love every single one of them because they're all different individuals. although im not going to lie we've had our times.
3) I'm really nervous/scared/excited about going to college. It's going to be so much different to high school
4) I get attached to people too easily
5) When I was little I wanted to grow up and be a beatle - not only because of the band but also because they're the only insect that I like.
6) I say that I'm not bothered about relationships when I am.
7) I eat so much food.
8) I love T.V
9) I'm the biggest Smiths fan you will ever meet
10) I like to be an individual
11) I like someone but I'm too scared to own up to it just in case they have changed their mind about me.
12) I'm going to work my butt off for the coming exams.
13) I'm a happy person most of the time because I feel like I have to be positive about life.
14) I love watching American T.V
15) I LOVE JACK WILLS! - the brand is so expensive but I can't help myself
16) I'm looking forward to the Summer holidays
17) I've become a lot closer to some people
18) I feel like a lot of people in my school hate me.
19) I'm going to give away a lot of money to Charity this year.
20) I want to be in relationship but its just too confusing at times.
2) Again the same with my friends - I love every single one of them because they're all different individuals. although im not going to lie we've had our times.
3) I'm really nervous/scared/excited about going to college. It's going to be so much different to high school
4) I get attached to people too easily
5) When I was little I wanted to grow up and be a beatle - not only because of the band but also because they're the only insect that I like.
6) I say that I'm not bothered about relationships when I am.
7) I eat so much food.
8) I love T.V
9) I'm the biggest Smiths fan you will ever meet
10) I like to be an individual
11) I like someone but I'm too scared to own up to it just in case they have changed their mind about me.
12) I'm going to work my butt off for the coming exams.
13) I'm a happy person most of the time because I feel like I have to be positive about life.
14) I love watching American T.V
15) I LOVE JACK WILLS! - the brand is so expensive but I can't help myself
16) I'm looking forward to the Summer holidays
17) I've become a lot closer to some people
18) I feel like a lot of people in my school hate me.
19) I'm going to give away a lot of money to Charity this year.
20) I want to be in relationship but its just too confusing at times.
Friday, 15 April 2011
2 weeks of jolly good fun
its nearly easter but for some of us including myself we have to start revision, because we have a ton of exams coming up. something im actually looking forward to. right now im at my aunties babysitting my cousin, well hes sleeping and im on my laptop but when they get home im running straight home to clean my room and make a revision time table. Im actually going to stick to this time, well except thursday because ive planned to go somewhere.
im sorry if i have been really boring today, im just really tired.
wishing everyone a lovely half term and an amazing easter
im sorry if i have been really boring today, im just really tired.
wishing everyone a lovely half term and an amazing easter
Thursday, 14 April 2011
My dad teases me so much, its so mean because its so hilarious and true. The one thing that amuses him the most is that fact that I complain so much but the things that happen to me are simply my fault. but its not my fault. Like I said before my dad especially enjoys taking the mick out of my single life, they always tease me about it. I'm not going to lie its because they want me to go to prom with a guy, especially my mum. aaaaaarg shes so annoying sometimes, people leave me alone. i've already told her that I'm going to go with a bunch of friends but she insists that I go with someone. So I think that's why they make so many jokes about it, I swear I should just have Joshua Morgan as my boyfriend that would shut them up. If im perfectly honest I'm not even bothered about prom anymore, I can't be fucked looking for a dress, to time consuming.
What is pardis thinking right now?
- well I'm not really thinking at the moment, I'm just randomly writing like I usually do. I actually love writing but I just cannot be bothered writing stories or anything to do with English, I just want to write for the sake of it, and not worrying about If i get a good grade or not. Just free style writing, if there is something like that.
I was looking at the line up for glastonbury and this year it looks amazing, Morissey is going to be there. DAMN IT! I hate my life at times like this.
being honest with myself
- I’m sarcastic.
- I cry easily.
- I have a bad temper.
- I’m easy to get along with.
- I have more enemies than friends.
- I’ve smoked.
- I drink coffee.
- I clean my room daily
My appearance:
- I wear makeup.
- I wear a piece of jewelry at all times.
- I wear contacts.
- I wear glasses.
- I have a piercing.
- I have small feet.
Relationships:
- I’m single..
- I’ve missed an ex before.
Friendships:
- I have a best friend.
- I have at least ten REAL friends.
- I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
- I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.
- I can trust at least five people with my life.
Experiences:
- I’ve been on a plane.
- I’ve taken a taxi.
- I’ve taken a city bus.
- I’ve taken a school bus.
- I’ve made a speech.
- I’ve been in some sort of club.
- I’ve won an award.
- I’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight.
Music:
- I listen to R&B.
- I listen to pop.
- I listen to techno.
- I listen to rock.
- I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until I hate it.
- I download music.
- I buy CD’s.
Television:
- I sometimes spend at least six hours a day watching television.
- I’m in love with Days Of Our Lives.
- I’ve seen and liked the O.C.
- I’ve seen and liked One Tree Hill.
- I’ve seen and liked America’s Next Top Model.
Family Life:
- I get along with both of my parents.
- My biological parents are still together.
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