exhausted

Like I said before the only times when I truly start thinking is when im laying down in bed, and as I was laying I noticed how judgemental I am. I like think that I give everyone a chance and not to judge a book by its cover however for some reason the harder I try the harder it seems. When me and my friend ella talk we talk about how we try and be friends with as many people as we possibly can, and im not tryin to be boastful or anything but this is true. Both me and ella (my amazing friend) do try and be friend with as many people as we possible can, of course we're not going to be very close friends with them all but it doesnt hurt to try and make conversation with people. Say for the fact that I was put in room with a bunch of random people that I didn't know and I had to make conversation with them, I would not be looking to talk to a person wearing lets say tracksuit bottoms. Not the fact that it is the wrong thing but I just would assume that they are some sort of a chav someone I would not really talk to. I am always saying that people are judging me but how about the fact that I judge people as well, I feel really guilty and I want to  say sorry to evey single person I have ever judged. Sorry guys

I Give up, but I guess that's  Ok. 

eating my worries away

I'm a really messy eater 

I want to be the girl he's scared to lose; the one where he can't walk away from knowing she's mad at him, The one who can't fall asleep without her voice being the last one he hears. the one he can't live without

Tuesday's

The only lessons that I have on tuesday's are drama and history usually their triple and then a double. Today I kind of enjoyed myself though I finished my statistic coursework the planning and now im looking for some data but none of the websites she gave me worked. Drama was so much fun, me and triston did well in our rehearsal and we spent the rest of the time watching other people preform and laughed really. Not at the people but at the jokes and stuff. Man I'm really bad at explaining things. Today my uncle from Taiwan came back, although his wife didn't (sob sob) I really like his wife because she always brings me these amaazing make up brands only for China and things, its pretty amazing not going to lie! but this time he gave me money, I'm not going to say how much but a lot. My eyes kind of widened when I saw it. Listening to the specials makes me so much more excited to see them in october or september whenever they're coming, although I'm probably just going to go with myself or my dad ^.^ yes me and my dad listen to the same music I think that I'm going to enjoy myself. I feel so knackered today even though I haven't even done anything, So im off to shower and go to bed.

stay safe ye? 

start of a fresh week

I'm so glad to have gotten last week over and done with. With everything that went on with the diebetes and stressing for coursework and such I'm hoping this week is going to be good.
This is what I look like right now
-I've come back from school so i'm still in my school uniform 

I look like a wild bush baby 

Today wasn't all that interesting, I had to go to Maths and start my statistic coursework all over again, so boring. I just wrote the same thing over and over again, on thursday I have to give in my english courswork which consists of Directed Writing and A Story. Oh man im so shit as stories I can never get it right. Today I was walking down albany road and I saw a man that looked like a Cartoon named RastaMouse. I couldn't believe my eyes, it was the most shocking yet hilarious thing ever! i'm waiting for one of my friends to come online because I've been bursting to tell him, he was the first person to introduce me to RastaMouse so I owe it all to him. I'm so tired, my eyelids are really heavy and all I really want is a bath. My hair today was outrageous, I couldn't be bothered to do it properly. cheeky pardis 

it's friday time to get down on friday

Okay so as most of you know the girl Rebbecca Black made a video/song called Friday and its pretty bad. Ok who am I kidding its terrible, Her voice is bad and the music video is just pointless. but she is getting a lot of abuse from internet websites and young teenagers, she is  only 13 years old, still a little girl how can people be so cruel and make fun of her so much. There are facebook groups and people making youtube videos hating on her, she's a girl with a dream yes she might not be the best singer ever but put yourself in her shoes imagine how the poor girl feels. So from now on if anyone makes fun of her where I'm around I'm going to stick up for her, even though she doesnt know me.

gained a new old friend

Last night a person I was really close to started to speak to me, first of all I was unsure of what to say because I though we hated each other. But after he apologised and we started to speak normally I noticed why we were such good friends before. It feels good to have an old friend back. I was really hoping today would be sunny so I could do something or go outside for a change but no the weather decided to bail on me again. I've been sick a couple of times from last night and I'm still not feeling too good, it was the pancakes I made yesterday yuck even thinking about them makes me want to vomit. all of my family are going out today and not coming back till monday night which means I'm going to be all alone at home. and watching the human centipede I swear there is a german guy like him who lives in one of the houses near me, so imagine if he came after me D:
my mum bought me a pack of energy drinks today since i finished the other ones last week, this women knows how to satisfy me. EVERYBODY HATES CHRIS IS ON! awh man i love that show so much, i used to have an obsession with it.
speak lateeer

in bed with no makeup nothing. not feeling too good but i still manage to smile

falling in love with the Artic Monkeys

creative minds or rumours?

I made form spring so that people would tell me how they think of me so here's a few, I don't like sharing them on facebook because its just ... well its facebook.

This is probably the most shocking yet hilarious stupid immature rumour that I have ever heard about me 

 Q)You only have guys as friends because you have fucked all of them

A)LMFAAAAAAO :') are you being serious? :L

I dont even know where to begin with this one, peope are so bored with their lives that they have to make stupid remarks like this one. yes I am good friends with a lot of the guys in my class and such, their like my bro's but I guess some people think differently. the stupid thing about this is that I have never even dated anyone in my school, so how would I have had sex with them? or maybe people just think I'm a slut. I try and say that this doesn't get to me but it does. 

You are a really self absorbed snobbish person. And I know that yet I haven't even met you.

You obviously dont know me then. 

people can be so judmental, at least have the decency to say that you know me or have spoken to me, then you might know the kind of person that I am. Self absorbed? Snobbish? oh wow. i guess I'm a really bad person, worse than I could have ever imagined. 

And then you get things like this 

I want My cock in ur Mouth

in your dreams hunnybell

By the amount of rumours that has spread about me, no wonder why people think im a slut. 

beauty in exams?

Talking about it last night I realised that for some of us exams are right round the corner, especially if your in year 11 like me. you are always piled up with coursework and revision, and this can lead to (dun dun dun) bad skin. 

Usually I'm not really keen on this because a little make up can fix everything, however if you are like me and you don't wear that much make up you need to have good, healthy looking skin. By doing this regularly you can hopefully decrease the chance of getting any spots and such. Here we go: 

1) NEUTROGENA WAVE

 

I love this little baby, its amazing. It cost me about £10, it comes with little pads that you put on the surface then you press the little on button and magic. you just rub it all over your skin and you should notice your face foaming, this helps unclog your pores, keeps your skin clean gets ride of make up and oils and it minimizes spots. you should use it every morning/night up to you really. 

2) 

 after using the wave I usually ex foliate my skin with coconut milk. I cannot say enough about this product, its just amazing. It has little black dots ( dont know what their called) which help make you skin look fresh and clean. this should remove all your dead skin cells making you feel refreshed. 

3)  After the exfoliation you need something to tone your and clean your skin. This product does exactly that, it balances out the pH in your skin hydrating in with water and moisture, after using this you don't even need to moistures. 

I usually do this in the morning when I wake up and before I go to bed, of course its up to you what order and what time to use them.  

oh btw check out the below post amazing giveaway from an amazing blogger, check it out. 

speak later 

loving this

Okay so one of my favourite bloggers is giving a free give-away to celebrate her 50 followers! for a chance to win this amazing contest all you have to do is go her page and tell her your favourite nail polish. Even if you don't want to enter have a look at her blog, she's brilliant :D! good luck!
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pouring my heart out

I feel so confused and lost right now, no one actually bothers to talk to me about it, I just want to talk to someone about everything! I've bottled up so much that I have no idea where to start, me and my dad are pretty close and he tried to talk to me because he notices that I'm not really being myself at home, I love both my parents to bits but its just some stuff I would rather to talk to about with friends rather than my parents no offense. So im just going to talk about everything on here, life, exams, coursework, mistakes, relationships, high school. EVERYTHING! of course im not going to be naming people but I am going to briefly outline them, but be warned I have a feeling this post is going to be very long. here it goes

School
school right now is so hectic, with exams coming but and coursework needs to be handed in I'm just really busy and stressed out. for some reason I can't seem to do anything right, for example english. I used to love it last year, it was fun, something I enjoyed but ever since mrs taylor came back she has made my life misreable. There is not one time that she will actually say well done. I know I sound childish and stupid but its so hard to please that women, I would have worked my butt of to do something and all she will say its not your best piece of work. Excuse me lets be honest for a second, you were on leave while having your third child in two years, you have not been here to help us, you have no idea how much other coursework and exams we have to worry about, how the hell do you know what my best piece of work is? Mr johns my last english teacher was amaazing, I used to love going into english it used to be the highlight of my day, he was so funny and nice and a really good media and english teacher, i don't care what others say about him, to me he was amazing! and even if I had not that that well in my work he would let me nicely, not like Mrs Taylor make me feel like shit all day. I have to hide my true feelings so that I don't upset people, otherwise Im just being moody. The only part of school I like right now is getting to spend time with my amazing friends, they're so funny and I am going to miss them all so much when we all part our ways. Im going to shut up about school because this post is getting really long.

Mistakes
When I think of some of the things over the last year or so, I feel so ashamed of myself. The way I treated people, just everything. I feel like I should punish myself for about 2978391237 years. I really want someone to shout at me and say that I have done something wrong, maybe that way I can get ride of this guilt. I don't really want to talk about it on here because I think its really personal to me, but lets just say that If i could turn back time I would. :'(

Relationships
lmfao I really dont know what to say about this, nothing really ever happens in my 'love' life. I dont think I'm that certain type of girl that guys like, im not tall and not pretty, im not super skinny and I seriously couldn't care about some of the things girls care about. I listen to different type of music that not many guys find interesting, I don't wear tons of makeup. I'm just not what guys go for. I guess that its okay, i could say that I dont care but I do. That's why I hate it. Its really whats the word im looking for .... not sad but just meeeh when you see such happy couples, I am really happy for them but it just makes me feel like ' Oh im never going to have that.' this sounds stupid but its the fact that being in a relationship you can talk about everything! you have someone that tells you your beautiful even though your not, someone who you can spend valentines day with, go on dates, hang around with for no reason, talk to one the phone. I guess in all my other relationships I haven't really been happy, I mean I thought I was but I was hiding away and trying to be a different person, which is why I was in a relationship the person didn't know me, the real me. i sound so depressing and shit but thats okayy right?

WATCHING FRIENDS - THE ONE WITH THE BOOTS 

sunny sunny sunny

I have mentioned this before but the weather this week has just been amaaazing! sun sun sun! and its not too hot but not too cold, its just perfect. I'm really glad its friday because im so tired, been a bit of weird week so I'm glad its all over. Today was the last day we had time in class to do our statisitic work which is really annoying, she changed the whole courswork so mnay times, no offense she's lovely but she's a really bad teacher. She told us that she would help us however she spent like half an hour talking one person, what about the others? all she can do is shout at us which is so annoying because her voice just goes through me. on saturday if the weather is nice im going to go to roath park all by myself to do some revision and coursework, i may look like a bit of a loner but who cares.

secretly caring

I have no idea where to start, except for the weather being amazing everything has seemed to bring me down today, well except for the fact of jamal taking random ugly pictures of me, highlight of my day. I felt like today no one bothered about anything, just one of those days that everyone was tired and stressed I guess. What really annoyed me today was girls complaining about not having a relationship and not the right boyfriend. No offense there is nothing like a perfect boyfriend, never was and never will be, I sound cold hearted but its true. The movies we watch make it seem like the perfect boyfriend is right round the corner but its not true, It's only in our imagintation that a guy will get us flowers and tell us we're pretty on our really ugly days. Well actually there is a couple of guys I have seen treat their girlfriends so nicely, but not all of them are like that. Oh as I was saying their complaining about guys and how they're going to be lonely for the rest of their lives, HOW OLD ARE YOU?! 15. Waaay to soon to be thinking about things like this, I mean I guess it would be nice to be in a relationship but nothing serious like marriage or something, that's just stupid. control yourself pardis. I don't know why i'm getting angry about this, i dont really care. okay thats a lie, i guess i do kind of care, secretly. who wouldn't want somebody to talk to about everything, or have an anniversary or go on dates, but its just the fact I would rather wait to be with someone who is nice, i can be myself around, laugh, sit there with them and just talk about anything, someone who is interesting. ahh well. I'm supposed to be writing a piece of english coursework about why mobile phones should be allowed in school?! what the hell?! i dont understand how this going to help me in the future.

my love for him is never ending

facebook.

I know that facebook is a socialising website and you get to post whatever you want whenever, but seriously some people just take the piss. Not naming anyone but is it really necessary to update your status every single second telling us about your life, to be honest I personally do not give a shit. The fact is that they say something and then say something compeletly opposite to what they said before. So freaking annoying. And then the person talks about how much crap they get, well if you didn't waste your time prancing around on facebook writing every single detail of your life so people would actually respect you and give you a little privacy. This sounds like im bitching but im not, I tell it to the person themselves just to make them aware, and why shouldn't I? how come they have the right to judge people but when it comes to them its the wrong thing to do, its time to give them a taste of their own medicine like my mamma says. So much anger and saddness in my right now i seriously don't know how to express it, I tried talking to my cat but he was no use, doesn't reply back, I feel like no one wants to speak to me or just doesn't care which is fine i mean its not like their responibility or anything. Tomorrow drama with props+costumes+lighting and music. I'm really excited because i Love drama, even though I have three hours of it in the morning its not all that bad, kind of enjoyable actually. I work with one my really good friends which is always a lot of fun, we help each other out. I have a really bad attention spam or whatever its called, seriously need to learn how to concentrate more. Kind of scared about my results coming back on friday, at first i was really confident that I didn't have *medical condition* ( don't want to name it because it will only make me upset) but now that i have researched more about it I actually have doubts, I have this weird feeling. I knew i shouldn't have had all those cups of tea with two sugars now look what's happened to me. I love my dad, he's been trying to cheer me up about it although even i can tell he seems a tad bit worried, I love how my family are with me at this time, don't know what i would do without them<3
This is leading on to be a very long post, but I really needed to talk even though it is in my head and im the only person that can hear it, oh and you bunch of random people that I don't know. It's really bugging me how I have 12 followers but two of them are invisble, I think . . . I'm really curious to know who they are, feeling a bit like curious george. This is what I mean by my bad attention spam for one minute I am talking aobut my health condition and the next thing I am comparing myself to curious george, my mind is so wsoifusdfh! that's not even a word but that's how i would describe myself right now. At half past I am going to get off this laptop prepare my stuff for tomorrow and just in time for glee, might listen to a bit of The Smiths before I do, Feels like forever since I've had a good listen to their playlist. Miss them a LOT!

she's so beautiful. I don't have the slighest clue who she is.

We're all worthy of having good friends<3

double identities

I hate the fact that I have to act differently to different people, why can't I always be me all the time. that sounds really stupid but i've only realised that the only time im fully myself is around  my friends and family, with strangers on the road or a shop or something I have to act differently just not to the off the wrong impression. It's not fair, this sounds so stupid but I was just thinking about it. Today on the bus some llanishen kids just started randomly talking to me, I don't even know why? They seemed really nice but I was in one of my moods where i just really could not be bothered. I'm so lonely at home its just me and my sister, my dad is at work and my mum out with my brother taking him swimming lessons or something, that women will just not give up. she has tried to make all of our family sporty people when i was little she made me go tennis lessons. If any of you know me, you would know that i HATE sports, its so much effort and people get so competitive, in double games I just sing/dance/scream/talk to everyone, and pretend to play.
I have so much coursework and revision to do, so for now
TARA!
XXXXXXX

i like sundays

Today me and my family had a bbq with my aunty her husband and my cousin, it was so much fun i feel so special to have these guys, best family ever. although we have our times i still love them even my sister which is weird. Yesturday was the St David's intreview which went really well for all my friends and me so im really hoping we get in. My new obsession is Alexis Jordan as you probably would know my last post was her music video, im getting ready to go bowling with my family. tomorrow i have a diabetes test :(! i hope i dont have it, quite worried :(

In love with her right now :D

i really want to take a picture like this in the summer


this looks so yummy but disgusting at the same time

embracing our flaws

All of us have flaws, even the prettiest women/men in the world still feel uncomfortable about themselves, whether it being our body shape, size, hair etc there is not one person that I can I am perfect all the time. The truth is there is no such thing as being perfect seeing celebrity's in magazine with amazing hair, teeth, body shape, etc. It's not true, these people have photo shop to makes themselves look almost perfect. The fact that we have to hid away our flaws doesn't make them go away, it just keeps them hidden and the only person who if going to be affected by this is us. If we embrace our flaws then people will respect you and feel for you, or there might not even notice. This is going to come out the bad way but loads of people say that beauty is within, yes it is within but when strangers see you they are not going to have a full on conversation to find out the person you, they judge you and if they see you are uncomfortable with yourself their going to have a bad impression. To me Beauty is within us however we must also embrace it through music,fashion, writing etc etc. We are all beautiful no matter what shape/size we are and until we can embrace our flaws then we're going to feel beautiful like we should. 

i love this picture so much

my dad is listening to jessi J

my parents are so odd, my dad is watching VIVA which was showing Jessi J and he seemed to be enjoying himself. My mum made the nicest chicken ever known to man, it was cripsy outisde and inside was juicy and fresh what a wonderful house wife, I'm proud of her. Today after school was amazing with ella, triston, riyhad and yassar, so much fun! im really going to miss, all of us have gotten really close. I finally got put in top set for science, which to be honest isn't that fun but hey its still top set right although i was doing the higher paper when i was in middle set so it really doens't make such a big difference. Up to date with all my media work which feels amazing, and the english and histor and so much more. Okay now my dad is listening to Glee- don't stop believing, what's wrong with this guy?! I got my question to vlog about it, its kind of a personal question so i don't know how to answer it without getting too emotional, im such a freak. Today year book was kind of - i dont really know how to describe, I dropped out though it was the best thing to do since Jamal and Lloyd really wanted to be there I decided that I shouldn't im okayy about it, I was brave and independant? My dad is going to talk to some agent so that they can find a house for ella and her family to move near me, oh she would love it, so much fun we even decided that we wanted to make plastic cup telephones which c'mon is a good idea. I'm just going to go before i ramble on and on ! oh i almost frogot happy st patricks day ' top of the morning to you and enjoy the rest of your day' I even attempted the accent

you give some love, you get some

I'm so shocked by the amount of people who are not willing to help others out! Whether its our friends, family or random strangers we must always be willing to help one another, for example doing some charity work or even complimenting someone your helping them. We might not be aware of it but we are the people that help others shape their ambitions, for example a model might not think she is beautiful unless her friends tell her so, with our kind words we can lead people to better places. I know this sounds cheesy and it is but about an hour ago I saw something that was just horrifying, I'm not going to mention it as I will get pretty emotional and angry, and reading it I was thinking what kind of joy do people get my hurting others whether it being emotionally or physically. What advantages are there to offer for being mean to someone?! Making fun of innocent people dying. now that's just sick, The amount of people that know about these things and aren't willing to speak out are just as bad as the people doing the deeds, if there is a way that we can stop bad things from happening then without even thinking about it we should do it. 

I LOVE DRAMA! the subject . . . 

not a happy chappy

It's really annoying when a guy tells you something but then tells his mates a different thing. so much anger inside me that if I were to write about it this post would be very long. I don't understand how they can be so bitchy, WHY? I had no respect for two faced boys, at all, not just for two faced boys but two faced girls as well, I understand that at some point in our lives we all have to be two faced but not all the freaking time! I'm not angry im just really aggravated and annoyed! 

happy birthday Louise Lawrence

She has finally turned 16 people, oh im so proud of her it was only yesterday she was 15. bad joke. The weather is so bright and sunny just they way she wanted it, today we're going bowling and then pizza hut, hopefully she will enjoy herself well with the likes of me ella and habbiba why wouldn't she. I'm so excited to see her in the dress we bought her she is going to look even more beautiful than she already is. I'm going to make her a cake tonight and bring it into school for her tomorrow hopefully she will like it, im thinking of drawing little louise people on her cake and at tutorial time she can come to our tutorial and she can receive her hand cooked cake by me. i hope i dont poison her with my bad cooking skills, or baking should i say. 

midnight writing

I find it weird that the only time and place where I can feel totally myself and receive the best idea's is when I'm about to fall asleep in my bed. I think I wrote about this back in 2010 but the time you go to sleep is the only time were you are completely  yourself and not needing to worry about anything, we spend our day pleasing others that we don't have much time left to make ourselves happy. I already wrote about this so if you want to read go check for one of my reeeeeeeeeeeeeally old posts. 


I watched Sleeping with the enemy, which is an amazing movie, Julia roberts is so convincing and its so sad to think that women in this lifetime still have to put up with this awful situation that her character was going through, man I really am an emotional person i'm glad i watched it on my own because i cried a little bit and if anyone was there with me they would call me a saddo because im such an emotional wreck when it comes to films. I think that this is going to be a really long post because i feel so relaxed and comfertable and I can talk in my head for hours on end without anyone telling me im annoying them. I entered for a couple on contests hopefully i might win something i probably wont because i have really bad luck but hey it was worth the try. I also changed some things about my blog, if you check it regularly you would notice, although im not going to say what it is unless someone notices it themselves. Today is louise's birthday which i am super excited about, we are all going bowling and then pizza, taegan set a bbq on the exact same date of her birthday saying that she wasnt aware of it, of course she was it was just the fact she wasnt invited, i really dont understand the girl. enough about her. i had this comment on my formspring saying about how im such an idiot for trusting the people that i do, i decided to ignore it because i knew it would hurt some people, i have a pretty good guess at who wrote that post but im not going to be a bitch and talk about it on blogger, unlike that person that wrote the comment i actually am a human being and dont like to make people feel bad in order that i feel proud of myself, sometimes i really wonder what sick people live on the stupid earth. sometimes i wish i could just go away, and never be seen or never have been existed there is so much sadness in the world that i really dont want to be a part of it, okay why is mum listening to avril lavigne? im going to have some coke, and yes the drink not the drug and get some sleep, tomorrow is going to be a good day :D 
tara top geezers 

From now on, I want people to send me a question or a hypothesis that they want to me to discuss and I will make a vlog about it and post it on here. For anyone that doesn't know what a vlog is, its a video that is a blog its confusing to explain. Below is my email address, im excited to see what you guys come up with :D

notthenormalkind@gmail.com

sunday before monday

The weather today is just beautiful, I hate that I take the beauty of Cardiff for granted, sorry city. Me and my family went out for a bit today, instead of having Sunday Lunch at home we went to this really nice Café in Cardiff Bay, and everything and everyone looked happy in the sun, although it was still kind of chilly. Unfortunately  to ruin my day I went on Ella's form spring because she told me about this comment that was posted on there, it was the most hurtful thing I have ever read. If someone insults her, its like their insulting me, I don't understand how people can be so nice to her face and then talk behind her back, she's done nothing to deserve this and for the fact that she is nice to everyone and gives everyone an equal chance somehow a stupid immature anonymous has to post harmful comments which are not even true. jammy bastards. 

Lloyd is so stupid, he's texting me while he's in the bath doesn't this boy know he's going to receive an electric shock and then die. Well I hope he doesn't die. Tomorrow is louise's birthday which I am so excited about, me and Ella got her this dress which she is going to loveeeee! hopefully anyway, we got in so she can wear it to Katy Perry concert in april. 

Well today i went got my eyebrows done which took such a looong time D: and then I met ella in town where we went to buy louise's birthday present and we brought ourselves a little something something ;D then i came home and we changed the arrangements for louise's birthday and then i watched the football which arsenal lost once again, fucking hell! who cares though van persie looked fitter than ever! and now i watched harry hills tv burp which really isnt funny, its childish and boring something i hate in a tv programme. im waiting for take me out to come on, maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan <3

Japan

I may to be that good of a christian but I am going to pray for the people  of Japan a lot! its not fair, why do innocent people deserve to be treated like this, so many people have died and so many injured. I'm so shocked right now its unreal, I didn't know much about it untill this morning tomorrow i am going to give so many money to the charity, they deserve it! this is the most shocking news i have recieved all year. i dont know what to do what to say what to think.

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY!

today we found out our results, and I got a B 1 mark away from an A! SO HAPPY! for some reason my mum is in a mood with me which isn't surprising since for some reason she is always in a mood with me. but i can smell spaghetti downstairs so i have to apologize for what i have done so my i don't eat in my room. I just found out that on louise's birthday its going to be raining and she wanted to have a picnic, but i doubt anyone will come if its raining, so i dont know what to do :/ stuck in the mud. Right now im starting to revise for science module 4! i find it really hard so i need all the revision in the world if I want to get an A in this module

pfft stupid immature little jammy bastards! 

ella and habbiba both got their letters from St Davids, aah! im so happy, I'm going to write loads because I must write my story for english, if not. im so screwed.

happy pancake day

I hate it on facebook where they have cheesy groups such as ' will you be my pancake on pancake day' obviously it's contradicting how valentines day makes people feel so bad about them selves. who cares anyway. Just watched Barcelona beat Arsenals ass, I love Arsenal but even I have to say they weren't at their best tonight, I mean we won them before why can't we do it again?! not a good end to pancake day. 


Ella gave me this weird nasty tasting chewing gum which was disgusting, we were both pissing our selves over it, even though it smelt and tasted nasty it was something that made us laugh, which I have nothing against. Tomorrow we have media, oh the joys. Our media teacher is really bad, I seriously mean that! REALLY REALLY REALLY BAD! I just came out of the shower so I have to go, I love how my mum and dad are laughing at each other's jokes, old age makes people go crazy. Tomorrow I'm keeping my hair natural, simply because I don't want to damage it any more and because I can't be bothered. simples 

grr i hate it when people tell me something and then tell their 'friends' something completely different. why would you do that, I seriously don't understand, to be honest it's fine I guess I'm just stupid to fall for what anyone says. Am I  gullible or do I just want to believe what I hear, I'm not too sure. I promise to myself whatever someone tells me I am not going to take is seriously at all. You can do it Pardis :D

im going to do my nails, im thinking of drawing stick men on them

so cute

weird moods

I'm stupidly happy right now, 1) because I got an interview for St David's College, the only place I applied for
2) because I'm nearly done with I.C.T coursework. Most people still haven't received anything which is fine because they will all be sent out by the end of the week, Hopefully ella and habbiba will receive theirs tomorrow :D I'm so bored right now, talking to ella on BBM and aicha but I really want to talk about something different, like aliens and stuff. I really don't know why I have these weird moods to talk about such things. I don't know what I'm going to talk about so I'm going to go
x

Think of the last person you kissed, did that person ever unbutton your pants?

nope

Do you like to cuddle?

laaaaaav it 

Will you be in a relationship in the next couple months?

dunno 

Are you excited for anything? 

yes louise's birthday! :D

Has someone ever made you a big promise & broke it?

so many times >:(

Let's be honest, what does your last text say?

cause your not giving him any loving any more he told me to tell you to use be like animals, but your not doing it anymore so hes going to ann summers to be sexed up. 

Who was it from?

ryan

Do you think anyone has feelings for you?

maybe . . .

Do you have someone who you can be your complete self around?

oh yes :D

What's something you really want right now, be honest?

honestly, a person. 

Are you afraid of falling in love?

yes 

Anything happen to you in the past month that made you really mad?

not that I can think of right now 

Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?

yeeeh

Do you drink water or soda more often?

water 

What are you doing tomorrow?

not reeally sure 

Are any of your friends virgins?

yes 

Who are you dating?

no one, paha

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

who was the last person i kissed?

Have you ever kissed "just a friend"?

nope 

Have you ever gotten burnt by a cigarette?

naah

How many piercings do you have?

two

Would you lie to the police if it would save your best friend's life?

of courssssssssssssssssssssssssse

What should you be doing right now?

sleeping 

Do you have a tattoo?

no sir 

I bet you miss somebody right now?

how did you know cheeky 

Can you commit to one person?

yeah boy

Did you ever wake up in the middle of the night just to check your phone?

naah nothing disturbs my sleep 

Has a wild animal ever been loose in your house?

no 

What do you like the songs you listen to to be about?

that doenst make any sense to me

Is sarcasm amusing?

it amuses me :D!

Do you like being up high where you can see a lot of things (like a plane)?

oh yes 

Do you like shows about the weather?

dont mind it 

Do you feel like there's something missing in your life?

yeeeeeeeeeeeeees

Are you feeling uneasy about anything?

mm maybe 

Does the sight of blood disturb you?

nopeee.

Do you hate drama?

bad drama that people get hurt, yes. 

Do you try to eat healthy?

no, i dont even try 

Are you afraid of being alone forever?

yess :L! 

Do you like where you are right now?

it could be better 

Do you like to text a lot? If so, on average, about how many do you think you send in a day?

it depends how im talking to 

Are you completely comfortable with your sexuality?

yeah 

Do you like doing things alone?

sometimes 

Are you happy right now?

i am indeed a happy chappy 

the 'talk'

Usually when your parents talk to you about relationships  and sex and whatever you would expect it to be so awkward, and to be honest I was expecting it to be like that. As I was listening to some Selena Gomez tunes my mum just walks into my room, like she usually does to check what I'm up to, and she started to make small conversation, she asked me about my day out with the girls so I had to say something back, as we were starting a conversation she decided to start by talking about relationships and how they weren't important right now and that I should be focusing on my school work and collage, she talked about sex, drugs oh the whole teenage thing, and to be honest it wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. She was telling me how beautiful I am, something she says very rarely so I'm going to treasure it like the cheese bomb that I am, She said that both her and my dad don't mind me having a boyfriend or dating as long as they approved and it wasn't getting in the way of my studies, I don't know whether to believe her or not, it was just no like my mum! At the same time I was talking to ella on Blackberry Chat so I wasn't really paying much attention as to what she was saying, crazy times. 


I'm still shocked at her, MY MUM! seriously, I'm in shock but I find it really weird and funny at the same time. I'm a really messed up person :D! 

Today was so much fun :D! I went out with my no1 bitches ella, habbiba and aicha we went to see I am number Four which is amazing by the way if you guys still haven't watched, it was horror in some ways as well! ahh so amazing words can't explain right now and we had decided to sneak into a movie rebellious I know, so first of all we sneaked into Rango which was the worst movie I have ever watched, I'm not even lieing, it had no story line it just seemed like a bunch of characters saying random words. Luckily No strings attached was coming on, so we sneaked into that just as it began! it was amaazing one of the best movies I have ever watched, ashton kutcher looked so fit it was unreal! That film kind of made me realize how shit being single really is, haha! I don't know what I'm going to do next weekend hopefully go out again. 


Yesturday me ella and habibba went into town, habbiba had a little moment which went crazy basically she walked in front of a car and the driver got pissed off! They came out of the car, at one point I thought we were going to have a scram! But after that we went into town where I bought Justin Bieber Wristbands! YES! will for sure take a picture of them and upload them on blogger, I have so much to say that I feel this post is going go on forever! me and ella are planning America and the whole of the summer, we're going to start going gym and stuff since we really want to tone up! I'm actually really excited! Listening to selena gomez, ohh I will love her forever! 


Right now I don't know how I feel, I wish I could talk about it on blogger but I can't it would really upset the person, so right now im keeping it to myself! but i seriously need to talk about it, but no pardis you have to keep it inside you are a strong women and you can do this! im so weird that I type what I'm saying to myself. I am trying to use all of unlimited texts so im texting everyone, i dont care if they dont reply! 
OH ELLA GOT A BLACKBERRY! so then I am going to be talking to her and we can hold of each other all the time! SO FREAKING EXCITED! today when we were watching take me out i was talking to her about it on bbm! oh the power of technology! I'm so bored right now that I think I'm going to complete one of those pointless questionnaires. 
speak later xxx

long time no post

aaaaarh! today was just so amazing, I had sociology all day which wasn't so bad, it was really funny. went to town with ella and habbiba, which was so much fun! me and Ella bought a justin bieber magazine, with tons of posters which are now on my wall, my wall is covered up! no space left at all! im not even joking! nothing i cant even show you guys because its so big it doesnt fit in the lense of my camera >.< i think this is beiber fever. me and ella are talking on blackberry messanger, aaah! im so excited now i can talk to her all the time! and were usually in these reeally funny situations and we cant get a hold of each other because she didn't have a phone but now that she does, its all till the break of dawn. Today she was a bit down and ahh it was so heart breaking, from now on anything that upsets that little lady imma be really mad, my sister phoned me to tell me that my mum is going to hopsital because she was ill so i got reallly worried but then i came home and my mum had gone swimming and my dad was cooking, and thats not what i like since my dad is a shit cook, im not even joking.

found the most beautiful prom dress ever!

happy birthday JB

aaaaaaaaaaaaaah me and my sister have sat down for just about 4 hours doing our media coursework, although she is two years younger than me we have the sam coursework. i am drained, i seriousy mean that, tonight im sleeping at ten beacause i was so tired today that it wasn't even normal. DRAMA is going really well, triston did so well today I was so proud of him so tomorrow at lunch time we are using the drama room to practice and i need to start and get costume props and music sorted. I dont know much about music so i would have to ask one of the teachers like mrs morgan because she is a music teacher.OHHH today is justin bieber's birtday, so happy birthday you beautiful man. him and selena gomez look like such a cute couple! i think im going to pack my bag for tomorrow,do my nails and sleep since im so tired. tara